I'm in need of a haircut real bad. My mom jokes I've gone from looking like an adorable Muppet to looking like a breathing rug. I don't necessary get why that's funny, but you know... humans are kinda weird. Wearing my fur parka hasn't been too bad, until I have to go outside. Do you know it's been in the 80's some days where I live??? Imagine going outside in A PARKA at 80 degrees. It'd be pretty miserable, right? For the most part I spend my days living the life of luxury lounging on my couches and enjoying the air conditioning, but on occasion my pawrents decide they "don't need the air conditioning on" and want to "enjoy the weather" and it's M.I.S.E.R.A.B.L.E. Yesterday my paws were sweating. Sweating! ME! Can you imagine?? I'm made for comfort and to be pet, not to sweat like a common animal.
If only I was a little bit taller, I could reach thermostat and be in charge of the temperature in my house. But unfortunately, I am not. If my paws weren't so clumsy maybe I could use a phone to call and get an appointment for a my haircut!!! But.... Unfortunately I can't do that. I have to wait patiently for my mom and dad to control my environment. Man is that frustrating.
Nothing grinds my anxiety gears like not being in control of situations. Anxiety tells me if I'm not in control, everything will be 100% out of control and absolutely terrible times 100,000,000. Does that logically make sense? No. But, I like control. Well, let me rephrase; anxiety likes to have control. I guess it's not me, it's just a symptom of my disorder. As we've talked about before, if I use symptom wording, it feels easier to work on. Have you ever met someone who says "I'm a control freak" casually as if that's a part of their personality you just have to deal with? Frustrating, right? Being a controlling person isn't something everyone else needs to tip-toe around. It's a trait ya need to work on!
Growing as a person/dog is really hard. Losing relationships because you refuse to work on yourself- even harder. We live in a pretty isolated society right now. A part of me wonders if that's because we try to control the people/ environment around us so much, we're not compromising, and creating islands for ourselves instead of community.
Despite my fur parka, today I'm going to "go with the flow" (well, at least try) and work on my emotional flexibility. I don't have to be in control of everything. I can trust my humans around me to take care of me and keep me safe.
Do you struggle with wanting to control everything/everyone around you? How could you work on being more flexible today???
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